Pessimism comes with a thousand arguments. Maybe you don’t deserve to be saved from the mess you’ve gotten into. Maybe you deserve punishment, G‑d forbid. Maybe the only way to save your soul is through a dark tunnel.
That’s not called trust. Trust means you have not a shade of doubt that He will deliver—no matter who you are and what you’ve been up to—and it will all be good, every step along the way.
As for your mess-ups, He knows you regret them...
